Sourire:)

Before I go, I just want to say, YES, I do know how to pronounce my url. :)

RAW-ZER-RAY.

Hee. Bye.

Wanted to private a post and open it to 7P, baby and youtiaos only. But Bff couldn't find the codes. And not all of them are my friends on Livej, so well... :(

I just wanna say that feeling sucks to the max.
It was really a mental torture.
Baby you understand right? I've never seen her that emotional as well.

That's all I can say. Ouch.

Last (yay!) chem practical in the morning. :) Walked to school with Bff and I just wanna say I'm really really REALLY glad that she's not choreographing our moves for grad night. Phew.

Went out with 4H after that. It was intended to be a class outing, but it sort of turned out to be a clique outing. Hee. We were discussing whether or not to cross the junction to get to the bus stop, and before we arrived at a conclusion, Darren (koh) crossed the road alr. So we asked him to come back, and he ran back. And 15 seconds later, we decided to have lunch @ Northpoint. So we had to cross the road again. He threw his hands up in the air and said 'Walao!'

We had lunch together at LJS. :) The person working there (I have no term for this position) was really nice- he helped us combine three separate tables outside to form a long table so that we could all sit together. :D TYJ got tissue stuck in her braces while wiping her mouth. -.- No idea how she did that, seriously. After that, she couldn't stop smiling/laughing to herself. HAHAHAH! :D

Some of them went to change (for a very very very very very long time) after lunch. We boarded bus 39 to Tampines. Zq, Laoying and I were discussing about class tee/hoodie on the bus. :) We alighted outside Whitesands mall, then took bus 354 to E!hub. We wanted to go to the beach initially, but since it was raining cats and dogs then, we headed to the arcade and Kbox instead. It was really REALLY cheap today. Only $8 per person, inclusive of drinks and snacks. :D Which it could be this rate for every class chalet, hee.

It was pretty different from singing with 2H. Usually we'd sing to practically every song together and scream/shout to most of them. So there was no real need for the mike. But with 4H, everyone got to sing. I don't remember having sung into the mike so often before. :/ It was a good experience anyw. :) Gave me more time to check out the lyrics of the songs. Plus, it's the first time I went to Kbox in the afternoon! There were some songs that made me feel really emotional because the lyrics were just...woah. :)

The most interesting thing that happened was Yk SCREAMING into the mike for the entire chorus (I think) when he sang 离歌. All of us got a scare, seriously. :/ I took many many pictures with Lyy today. Walked almost the entire top level of E!Hub to take pictures with her at almost every spot. With the same pose some more.

Walked to Pasir Ris Mrt station, took the train to Tampines and took 969 home after that. :) I had to call SH for directions. :/ Not used to going home from Pasir Ris at night.

I don't want school to reopen.

你还是选择回去。
他刺痛你的心，但你不肯觉醒。

365 days ago.

The piano version of Wedding Dress is beyond awesome. :)

I just got home and finished bathing, so I smell really nice now. ^^v I know it sounds inappropriate but heck, I just wanna say it. :D

Had bio supp in the morning. Whoa, Mrs choo was in a brilliant mood today. :/ She smiled at RH when she pointed out an error in Baby's script (like, cuz Baby deserves one more mark) and she praised Laoying for being honest when Laoying told her she ought to have one mark deducted. :O And of course, very hatable people like Yk managed to get a grand total of 4 MORE marks. Irritating. :/

BABY, WE WILL SET ASIDE ANOTHER TIME TO DISCUSS ABOUT YOUR GRADES OK. I did not forget!

Had chem pract after that. Mr Chang was so exasperated with Bff and I because 1. we kept pestering him to help us light up our bunsen burner, but it's really cuz the lighter is faulty, 2. we couldn't catch what he's telling us and 3. he came over to help us with an experiment, before realising that we were talking about TOTALLY DIFFERENT experiments altogether. :/ He was like, 'Aiya, I don't want to talk to you two already!' Hee. :D Smelled chlorine today. It's the most distinguishable gas by far, because it just smells like a highly saturated swimming pool.

Went to Np for lunch with the girls after that. :) We were at the traffic junction when the bus arrived, so we were hopping and praying that the green man will come on, but when we did manage to dash across the road eventually, the bus pulled away from the bus stop. :( So the four of us, Baby, Chong, JM and I, ran, like really RAN, to the next bus stop. But we stopped halfway cuz it's way too far away, and our bags were really heavy. Was a really interesting experience anyway. :D

We went to Eun's house after that. Intended to do hmwk initially, but we ended up dancing, singing and using the computer. I was realllllllllllly happy when she told me about something that happened during their dance reh for grad night today. ^^ I wanna start dance reh soon too! :D We feel pretty out of place cuz for all I know, DEG are using korean songs, while we're still debating about EL songs. Oh well. It'll be a fun night. :D Can't wait! Eun told us about De quan and Boon han dancing Wedding Dress, HAHAHAH! :D Her description was fab.

Chong and JM went crazy playing Jenga. ;/ There's something seriously wrong with ECXY recently, cuz she's forever on an unnatural high. :D Like, today, she held some Jenga blocks in her hands, and danced towards us, saying 'Hahah this is a flying carpet!', and the next moment, she was performing some tribal dance. Until Eun told her there's actually a CCTV installed in her living room. HAHAHAH! :D We dug for the piano score for Wedding Dress. :D GO LISTEN TO IT IF YOU HAVEN'T! I'm not particularly fond of the song, but I love the piano piece. ^^ Really sweet.

Baby's sigh reading skills are awesome! And Chong ah. The quality of your performance is the same as mine, despite you being a G8 pianist. :P Hee.

Went over to Bff's house after that. :) We had dinner together. Her mom gave me a really, REALLY huge portion of pasta. It was nice, but I don't have that big an appetite. We had a H2H talk after that. <3 It's really....cool when we can totally read each other's mind without having to verbally/physically converse. She walked me home after that. Love her. :)

If someone who hardly says 'I love you' does, it means at that point in time, he/she really does.

But so what?

SH owes me something because I guessed his PM correctly, whoohoo. :D

Geog was pretty boring, except that Yk came to school with a durian for his head and he was luckily chosen for presentation, while Wen liu and I were not, so we were really happy. ^^v Chem was coooool but I was very confused with all the experiments and all so I got pretty moody. :/ I don't like QA; it's so complicated! The most interesting thing that happened was smelling the chlorine gas, ammonia and sulfur (or sulphur?) dioxide.

Went to Northpoint for lunch with Bff, Baby, Chong and JM after that. :) We went to the library to do maths after that, but it got soooo boring (vectors!) after two hours, so we went to walk around. Chong had to leave soon cuz she was having piano lesson, so the three of us walked home. :) Really walked. Cool experience. We spent a long, looooong time reminiscing about 2H08<3. Took a break @ Mac's after we reached Admiralty. :D

The irritating thing about listening to K songs is you hardly understand what you're humming to w/out looking at the translations. Urgh. Like, all along I thought Haru Haru was a happy song, cuz it's fast-paced and all. Until SH got me to watch the MV today, then I realised it's a tragedy. :(

The reason lovebirds always feel out of breath is because all the oxygen is used to keep the flame burning. :)

Hellooooooooo! :D

Firstly, and unfortunately, we're over. Yea you know who we are and over, like, O-V-E-R. I kinda got that drilled into my mind last night. I can't hardly count the number of times you said that but oh well. :) And NO I'm neither bawling nor moping, because I was prohibited from doing so. What right do I have to do so, anyway? Enough begging and pleading for now, seriously. It was quite a touchy experience. :/ But yes, will shut up like you told me to. :) At least now I know I'll never walk back. Saw stuff I couldn't see. Understood stuff I never did. Ah. I promise to back off and shut up so DON'T accuse me of never fulfilling my promises ok. :D

I feel really weirded out now, like not being used to some stuff and such. But oh well. :) Part and parcel of separation.

Sooooooo Physics supp in school this morning! It was just SPA practice, but it was great fun anyway. :D That's majorly because my great partner, Chong, couldn't stop laughing. -.- We spent a looong, looooong time discussing about the overestimation/underestimation reflection. :D It always ends with Chong and I having a shouting match. Went back to class to rearrange the tables, but the classroom looks zzzzz now. :/ Dug for my chem prac book but couldn't find it, oh well.

Had lunch with girls @ Subway after that cuz I promised Mom to have lunch. :) I bought the wrong meal. -.- Chong was pretty miffed, because she wanted to eat some Korean noodles at the foodcourt. Hee. Something happened at Subway that made me very, very happy. :D I'm so sorry I had to do that at your expense, but maybe one day I'll get over it. :D And baby was also happy la hor. :P

Headed to Eun's house to do homework after that. Surprisingly, we really did manage to get things done. :O Stupid Chong, kept pestering me to draw straight lines for her because she claims her lines are always crooked. -.- Yang yang was a handful. Because he couldn't stop throwing things at us, hitting us and irritating us. :/ He made the lens of my glasses fall off! There was once I threatened to throw him down the stairs, and thereafter Baby couldn't stop laughing. :/

It's pretty ironic. A couple of days ago, Yk asked me to choose a song for CD. So I chose Love Drunk. And now, I guess Love Drunk says everything you wanna say. The first thing I mouthed to myself when I saw the lyrics was 'woah'. Funny how songs are crafted to speak for you sometimes, but that's why we love them so much. ^^

Cry? Did that, will try to stay away from it.
Mope? Please no.
Regret? I hardly have the right to do so since uh, I exhuasted all the chances I was given.

At least once this pain is over, I know it's not coming back. The last, final blow. :) No more of the same pain any more.

今天，因为有了你们的陪伴，让我少些郁闷。真的很开心。:)

今天下午和璇、合与萱到某人家为他庆祝生日。我们先买了蛋糕，然后搭车到三巴旺。原本璇要买摄像影片，可是那里没卖，反而我和合买了泡泡茶。不说是哪间店，不过那里的泡泡茶不但价钱昂贵，而且也不怎么好喝。我买了巧克力奶茶，可是巧克力苦苦的，我不喜欢。虽然知道巧克力原本就是苦的，但是我还是比较喜欢甜的。我通常都是心情郁闷时吃巧克力，因为吃到又甜又可口的巧克力会让我的心情变得比较开朗。味道苦的东西让我想起不开心的事，所以让我十分反感。不过算了，既然买了，就当成是一种经验。:)

最后我们搭车到义顺，然后转搭巴士到那位某人的家。我们在租屋楼下等了许久。详细情形不便透露。^^ 我和萱闷至于开始做英文作业。-.- 不过也因为如此，我俩许下了承诺，要一起做英文作业！最后到了某人住的那一层楼徘徊了许久。老实说，手里提着一个大蛋糕又像白痴似的不停在别人家的走廊徘徊，还蛮丢脸的。-.- 不过这样也为我们添加了不少娱乐。:D 最后某人的好朋友好不容易摆脱了某人，上来找我们，还为我们点蜡烛。说到那蜡烛还真是想笑！合不小心将蜡烛插进蛋糕，结果点燃蜡烛时还我们十分担心蛋糕会烧起来。:/

最后我们终于到了某人的家，而某人也吓到了。很感谢某人的三位朋友与我们‘合作’。^^ 嗯，在屋子里发生的奇怪事件就免说了，是秘密。^^ 我只能说。。某人完全没有想到我们会给他这样的惊喜，而他真的吓到了。而且与我们串通好的三位朋友。。我只能说他们的胸前都受伤了。哈哈。:D 看到某人和璇这么快乐，真的让我非常开心。看着他们幸福的样子，真的让人感到十分窝心。很高兴今天能为你们俩制造快乐的回忆。希望还会有这样的机会！

本来不怎么想吃晚餐，因为最近真的没有胃口。不过璇，我真的不是在赌气。^^ 只是胃口不怎么好罢了。不过我最后还是吃了啊，不是吗？:)

在回家的路上，合与我聊了几句。区区的几分钟，却让我感到无比的窝心，不再那么郁闷。合说，看到某人和璇如此开心，她不禁想起我。她问我，看到某人和璇快乐，自己会不舒服吗？不会，真的。看见自己的朋友快乐是一种无可代替的幸福。心里不舒服，也只是因为胸口的上还在隐隐作痛。不过不是说人做错了时，都得受惩罚吗？就当作这是我的惩罚吧。:)

唉。。人怎么会在失去过后才懂得珍惜呢？

晚安咯。^^

Something that 项羽平 said in 就想赖着你 made me ponder for the entire night.

Once, twice, thrice and the fourth.
Nothing I can forget.

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19..
Nothing I can forget either.

How do you rebuild a house with its remnants?

"At that moment, we would have won the 100m race."
"We ran till we're tired and out of breath."

My best friends, my running champions. :) All six of you.

Doing forfeits with 4G felt awesome, like we're really a cohort, not just individual classes.

I just know that I did enough wrong to deserve to fall down.

The motivational workshop was, and still is, AWESOME!

Coach Elgin is really cool and I think he's really charming and charismatic. :D The activities were all really meaningful, esp Huddles! It's beyond my painfully limited capacity to imagine that so many morals, feelings and virtues can be compacted into a simple game we didn't think too much off. Except crashing the instructors into the walls (for 4H guys) and somehow getting the instructor INTO our circle and refusing to let her out (4H girls). Sweeeeet. :D

We did the DISC test and I'm a CS person! But all of them, except for Sen hou, think that I'm more C-D and they looked at me with disbelief when I said I was S as well. Hahah! But really, I agree that I'm more of a C-D person. I DID fold the mahjong paper into 4 parts first thing and my group laughed really loudly when coach Elgin went like 'And the type C people will fold the paper into 4 nice parts...' It was cool, anyw, watching all those usually unnoticeable traits surfacing. :D

I had really, really horrible cramps this morning. :/ Wanted to go home initially, but the pain subsided eventually. I called mommy and told her I wanna go home, so she rushed all the way to school from TTSH (she was collecting medicine for grandma). I thought she took the train, so I sent her a message asking her to sms me when she's at Khatib Mrt station, and if I was still feeling unwell then I would go home. Unbeknownst to me, she took a CAB, and when she called me, she was already outside school! But I was feeling ok alr, so she went home.

She said she saw a carebear pouch at the pharmacy and wanted to buy it for me actually, but she dropped the idea after she received my call and jumped into a cab. Seriously, I don't care about the carebear (pun intended) because mommy's concern was enough. :D Nothing matters too much when mommy loves me. :D

And I love mommy too. <3

PS. Thanks deard and Justina for the pill, and BFF for the tissue! :P